Below and Blackness Above
Missing scene from Murder 101. Was anyone else as suprised as me that Blair jumped
into the water so easily after drowning?
They aren't mine. Be grateful. Spoilers:
"Murder 101" and "Sentinel Too"
I hope ya'll like it... Hey, it's Blair angst!
*g* And I truly do adore Jim with all my heart, but I just gave him a gentle kick.
Blair clenched his mouth shut, pushing down the nausea and blackness that
threatened to overwhelm him. He treaded water rhythmically, keeping a death grip
on Brad. Dont think about it; youre dry, youre safe, youre
on firm ground
Brad thrashed suddenly and Blair submerged briefly,
but it was enough to nearly send him into hysteria. Calm down, calm down!
he shouted at himself, frantically gasping. He jerked Brad backward hard. Hurry
up, Jim or Simon or *someone*. Im sorry for everything these past few days,
Im sorry. I was just angry, I didnt mean it, Ill do better
His frenzied mental babbling was interrupted with the sight of a boat heading
toward them. He felt a surge of anger when he saw that only Jim and Simon occupied
the boat; Jim must have stopped and dropped the girl off. Thanks for running
to my rescue, Jim, he thought sarcastically. The boat pulled alongside them
and Jim cut the engine. Simon grinned at him.
help, Sandburg?" he asked, leaning further out and extending his arm.
Blair gasped. "Yes, hurry, please." He saw both Jim and Simon frown
at his begging tone, but didnt really care. He was too busy trying *not*
to think of the water lapping at his mouth and ears, the taste of it in his mouth,
the feel of it running down his face. He pulled Brad over the boat and shoved
him forward. Simon grasped the boys arms and dragged him up, then turned
him over to Ellison, who began reading him his rights with a satisfied gleam in
his eye. Simon looked over side of the boat and right into Sandburgs huge,
terrified eyes. The amount of fear he saw staggered him. The kid was pawing frantically
at the side, looking like a cat trying to climb up glass. Concerned now, he reached
down and much more carefully helped Sandburg in. He collapsed the second his feet
"You okay, Blair?" Simon asked quietly.
whispered Sandburg honestly, wiping at his face. Simon was again shocked; tears
were mixed in with the water there. Despite it being uttered so quietly even Simon,
who was standing over the kid had to strain to hear it, Jim looked at them sharply.
He forcefully shoved a sulking, handcuffed Brad into the nearest seat.
watch him," he barked, going to the controls. Simon squeezed Blairs
right shoulder and gave him another once-over before obeying. The engine roared
"I dont want to ever hear you order me around
again, Ellison," he called over the rushing air. Blair shivered and curled
up, pressing against the side of the boat. I am not going to break down
in front of Ventriss. I am not going to cry in front of Jim and Simon. I am not,
I am not
he chanted to himself, blocking off his mind from going to
that spot it most wanted to go. Picture yourself in Rome, in a café
he pulled out every trick he could think of, but his mind continued to skitter
around the hole looming in his head, threatening to drag him into memories. After
an eternity, he felt a large hand swallow his shoulder.
Weve hit land." Simons surprisingly gentle voice broke through
his fragile reverie.
"Th-thanks Simon," he managed
between violently chattering teeth. When had it gotten so *cold*? He staggered
to his feet, took a deep breath and hopped over the side into the knee-deep water.
As soon as he made contact, a scream nearly erupted from his throat, but he choked
it back with a small sound. What is *wrong* with me? Gotta get to land
He rushed toward solid, dry ground, arms wrapped tightly around his middle. Jim
and Simon shared a look and followed. Ventriss was pulled away by two other cops,
shouting curses and threats at Sandburg. They soon faded, but Blair didnt
even notice. He stood, eyes closed, hunched in on himself, clearly working on
"Chief?" Jims inquiry appeared
to go unnoticed. He and Simon shared yet another glance, both concerned. Suddenly
Blair folded up and dropped to the ground, moaning. Both Jim and Simon followed.
They spoke at the same time.
"C-cold," he moaned, eyes
screwed shut. "Wet. No. Alex, n-no, please d-dont." Jim jerked
back as though an electrical current had shot through him. Simons jaw went
"Shit. I didnt even think
" he sputtered.
dont h-have to d-d-do this, Alex. Stop. Please." Blairs voice
dropped lower. "No!" It was shouted, and both cops jumped. "No!
Jim, Im s-sorry. I d-didnt mean
he went suddenly, horribly slack and terrible choking sounds emitted from his
"Blair!" Jim grabbed his shoulders and shook
him. "Blair, wake up. Snap out of it. Youre OK, shes gone, she
cant hurt you
" His face was white.
Simon tried, reaching over and gently slapping Blairs face. "Come on,
Sandburg, dont do this." Blair went limp and silent for a second, not
breathing, then stiffened. He rolled over abruptly and threw up. Jim rocked back
on his heels, relief flooding his face. Simon ran a hand over his face. Jim gently
rubbed Blairs back.
"Youre okay, buddy, just
keep breathing." He was surprised when Sandburg jerked away from him.
now you c-care?" he mumbled, eyes closed and then looked profoundly shocked
at himself. Jims jaw clenched.
"Whats that supposed
"I didnt mean that, Jim, Im s-sorry
up, Sandburg? First you go into this traumatized
bout and stop breathing,
then the first thing you do when you come to is start sniping at people?"
Blair shrank into himself, still shivering, eyes half closed, looking miserable.
Simon took pity on him and interfered.
"Look Jim, back off.
Hes had a hard day and is scared and confused, and has just suffered a flashback
to a very bad situation. If he says he didnt mean anything by it, then he
didnt." Jims expression softened.
sorry, Chief. Here," he gently helped Blair to his feet "lets
get you home." Simon moved to Blairs other side, but saw that Jim had
Sandburg well supported. Blair suddenly blinked and looked around with glazed
"S-simon? Are we in Sierra Verde?"
Blair. Were in Cascade. You just caught Brad Ventriss, remember?"
Blairs brow furrowed, a look of intense concentration on his face. "I
should be in Sierra Verde, helping Jim."
right here, Chief," Jim spoke up. Sandburg jerked his head toward him as
if just noticing he was there.
"Hey man," he greeted
wearily and promptly passed out. Jim grunted as he was suddenly left to support
Sandburgs weight by himself. Simon moved quickly to help.
lost weight, Simon," Jim said quietly. "Why didnt I notice that?"
Simon didnt respond, knowing Jim was mentally kicking himself.
get him home and warmed up."